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Yesterday I participated in the moment of silence for the victims of the Sandy Hook Elementary shooting. And I think we all needed that moment of silence to re-gather our thoughts and try to wrap our minds around such horrific events. My heart aches for all the survivors and the families of the victims.
But today I feel more like talking....
If you've had enough of the school shooting discussion, I completely understand. We all grieve and deal with tragedy in different ways. Today you will probably see my ramblings here and they may not even make sense. I can't even claim ownership of what I say here because I am still so confused. This is more therapy for me than anything.
How could this happen? How could this happen in the greatest country in the world? What kind of person could not only kill others....but kill babies? And....the most frightening question: What exactly would I do if put in the same situation as the faculty at Sandy Hook?
The thoughts and questions are overwhelming! I have spent the better part of the weekend with a heavy heart. Today, as I returned to school with my little ones, my heavy heart lifted. I mean life does go on. We have a job to do. We have little ones to teach and we are such a big part of their little lives.
The more details I read about, the more I feel confused. The reality of what those children endured is almost too much for me to contemplate. And the hopelessness their teachers must have felt is unthinkable (even while acting as heroes down to the last minute).......
When did things change in our country? When did it become SUCH an unsafe place?
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And the question that no one seems to agree on: How can we keep our kids safe?
Some say gun control laws need to be strengthened, some say no.
Some say teachers should have guns in the classroom, some say no. (BTW, I cannot fathom having a gun in my kindergarten classroom. I couldn't. I wouldn't.)
Some say locks, metal detectors, Raptor systems, and police officers at school is the answer.
Do we want to admit that these kinds of events are "normal" and "bound to happen" therefore we need to prepare for them? Or, do we stand by passively and blindly hoping and praying it never happens again?
I try to think of things through parent eyes (since I am a mom). What would I want my children's school to be like. In an ideal world, their schools would be open and welcome to parents. I wouldn't have to show id, I could float by my child's classroom and eat lunch with him/her. However, if I have complete access to my child's school, how many other people have the same kind of access?
I don't claim to have answers. I am more confused now than I was before Friday.
It's all so confusing and heartbreaking....GOD, shouldn't our children just be OFF-LIMITS?!?!??!!?